Something very profoundly and indelibly creeped me out to-day, so badly I don't think I'm even gonna say what it was. I almost feel ashamed of myself for feeling like I do about it. It was seriously one of those things that made me question the validity of my continued existence, and made feel afraid of living a life stuck in a train I cannot escape from.
I hope I'm not stuck in some ugly tar pit of human helplessness. I hope the things that I've believed have been making me feel fulfilled have actually been fulfilling, and that I haven't been elaborately deluding myself.